When I found out I wanted to cry,
I wanted to run to you,
Just hold you.
When I found out I thought of what it would be like losing you,
I couldn’t breathe,
I couldn’t think,
I just cried.
When I found out I wanted to scream at you,
For being so selfish,
For not thinking,
For not telling me.
When I found out I think a part of my died,
I couldn’t lose you,
I can’t lose you,
I need you.
When I found out I thought of how you have saved me,
How I hadn’t saved you,
How it was my fault,
I should have been there.
When I found out I felt like I had been cut,
Like every time you cut it cut me,
When I found out I thought you deserved better,
Because you are a good person,
And bad things aren’t meant to happen to good people,
People like you.
Laugh til you cry, love til you die.